Saturday, June 25, 2016


Prophets prophesy in PART! We know in part. Wherever there are prophecies they will fail. Love never fails (1 Corinthians 13). No one truly KNOWS the future, if we did we would have changed many behaviours years ago as only now we realise the effects. If we did we would have brought up stocks and shares in so many companies that didn't look promising. We wouldn't have laughed at so and so's dream. We may have betted or entered the lottery (be honest with yourself). We would have said our last goodbye and told them we loved them. If we knew how close we were to reaching personal goals we would have never given up. 
If ONLY we could see what tomorrow will bring. 
Think global warming, pollution of the air and the seas, waste and recycling etc. Rainforests cut down, animals extinct. Even karma if you believe in it, some of us call that sowing and reaping. The irony of conquering other people's counties and then moaning when they 'flood' yours because of your patriotic advertisements (must see Trevor Noah's comedy set on this L.O.L.). I'm sure many years ago the promiscuous (careless while doing it) couldn't foresee STDS/HIV/AIDS. If we knew cancer was associated with exposure to asbestos for example it would not have been used in buildings but we didn't. We all make mistakes - the point is that not knowing is what makes it a mistake and not outright suicide. We can guess, predict, forecast, but do we really KNOW. Show me a man who knows it all. 
1 Corinthians 13:12(NKJV) For now we see in a mirror, dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know just as I also am known.
Change is scary but change can be good. The things is you don't always get to choose change, often you just have to deal with it when it chooses for you Unamused face Such is life, it's unpredictable just like British weather (don't trust the weather woman bring your shorts and your umbrella). What's done is done. Worry is a pointless emotion. "Which of you by worrying can add one cubit to his stature?". Regret is not a time machine, so now that you've tried and failed to go back and change the past, welcome to the present, here we do what we can to make a better future. 


People imply that everything that happens to you is your fault because they enjoy the security found in a false sense of control. You can be likeable but you don't manipulate favour, it chooses you and sometimes it doesn't. Time and chance happen to us all. You can change your attitude but you can't change people. Abuse is NOT your fault, and the fact that you may have stayed longer than you should've is probably because you were learning to believe it. Life is like Mother Nature's ways, you can try and channel it to suit you but unless you're Storm from X-Men you will never rule it. Your vision of life won't always manifest as you expected, that doesn't mean there isn't goodness ahead for you. I take no issue with the pursuit of happiness, you can choose that. What I will disregard is the pursuit of perfection. When trying to choose well be careful not to get into the habit of avoiding anything that looks like work. If you want to obtain the best and maintain it too, at some point you will have to face a challenge.

I don't mean a challenge for perfection, but that the challenge itself will involve dealing with imperfections that aren't so appealing. Issues they claim to be of your doing may be necessary challenges. Perhaps it could've been avoided? But something else would challenge you. Cowards imagine they have outsmarted life, but when you think you have out-run 1 responsibility 10 more will find you. Don't be afraid. The same people criticising you, mocking you & blaming you for your challenges will have a shock when they are re-introduced to their own. The same people gossiping about your imperfect life are trying to deflect from their lack of life. Everything is your fault? Be mindful that this view doesn't depress you. Take life as it comes, accept the challenge and make it work for you. The best bet is to take responsibility for your mistakes and not burden yourself with blame for the responsibility or choices of others. 
What good will 'Shudda, Wudda, Cudda' do you? As long as you have choices you will make bad ones, yet the best creations, lessons, blessings have come from making 'mistakes'. Regret is powerful and has its own purpose. Some decisions should not be repeated, learn from other's mistakes. Remember you can recover. I believe we all have different paths. When people fail to embrace themselves they wish for a life that belongs to others. I believe in choice, the power of imagination & creativity in action but to what extent can you really create yourself? What is authenticity? Where does imagination meet delusion? Where does self improvement meet self hate? What in yourself do you accept and what do you reject?
What is the difference between a mistake, a character flaw and deliberate rebellion? Motive I guess, what flows from the heart. The root. The cause. Challenge your own motives. Evaluate the state of your own heart. There's both an issue when someone cannot critique themselves and when all someone can do is criticise themselves. Find balance & truth. Relax, nothing and no one here is perfect. No one is going to beat me up over my mistakes, my shortcomings or my failures, not even myself. 

Thursday, May 12, 2016

My Thoughts ON..... John 3:30

Inspired by/shedding light on John 3:30... because somebody asked me to....

John 3:30 New King James Version (NKJV)
He must increase, but I must decrease.

In John 3:30 John is speaking, he was a prophet who was sent to prepare the way for Jesus (Mark 1:1-8) "Prepare the way of the Lord, make His paths straight". Jesus, the son of God is the one he referred to as mightier than him, who in his words, he is not even worthy to loose the sandal strap of. Although Jesus walked among us, as one of us (Matthew 9:10-13) even the least of us, John recognises His majesty, His divine authority and identity. Not everyone recognised or embraced it (Matthew 16:13-17) because it was a revelation. John is showing reverence. Even Jesus sets the example of reverence and honour by not praising Himself for being the son but exalting the Father "For my Father is greater than I" (John 14:28). I think this is important context along with Matthew 20:25-28 which tells us that if we desire to be great we must become a servant, "For the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve". 

Rather than lifting up ourselves we have to decrease ourselves (John 3:30). In my opinion this verse is often taken out of context, people often seem to think it means to kill your individual identity, personality and dreams. Humility is not the same as low self-esteem, thinking of yourself less is not thinking less of yourself, it's a matter of choosing to decrease yourself to become a servant (Philippians 2:3) "Let nothing be done through selfish ambition or conceit". Although you are a new creation (2 Corinthians 5:17) in Christ you are not a robot off an assembly line. You can't lose the essence of who you are because God created that essence and you are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14). God is the giver of dreams, every good gift is from Him (James 1:17). Your desires matter to Him (Psalm 37:4) delight yourself in Him and He will not give you a stone if you ask for bread (Matthew 7:7-11).

The surrounding verses in John 3 refer to an analogy of a wedding. John says that he is not the Christ but he was sent before Him, he is like the friend of the bridegroom. The bridegroom is Jesus and we the Church are the bride (Ephesians 5:25-33). The friend rejoices because he hears the bridegroom's voice, John's joy is fulfilled by fulfilling his purpose. He's not trying to be the bridegroom, it's not his 'big day' not his show or his stage, he must decrease and Christ must increase. He's from the earth (dust) but Jesus is from heaven "He who comes from heaven is above all" The Father the greatest of them all "loves the son and has given all things into His hand. He who believes in the son has everlasting life". John can only prepare the way but Jesus IS the way!! (John 14:6). 

John 14:6 New King James Version (NKJV)
Jesus said to him, “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me.

Sunday, April 17, 2016

Falling Away

There is no condemnation in Christ (Romans 8) don't let people condemn you in your faith not even other believers. There are those that will happily place burdens on you that they themselves have no intention of bearing (Matthew 23). The people quick to judge often try to deflect from themselves and project their own issues. The same religious people trying to keep you out of the door won't go in themselves (Matthew 7:21-29). We are seeing a great falling away (Matthew 24:10). They debated meaningless tradition, concerned about spiritual pedigrees and titles (Colossians 2:16, Titus 3:9) they judged you for not being 'holy enough' (ironically in their carnal view) but through their own life trials they discovered they had no root (Matthew 13:5) and Christ was not their foundation (1 Corinthians 3:9-15). They began to question what they appeared to be unwavering in "Who is Jesus? What is the Bible? What is man? What is earth?" and suddenly they are no longer 'saved'. What happened to all the preaching? Where is the conviction? Most of all how could true relationship be forsaken? Pray for all the prodigals that they come to themselves and see their Father's image (Luke 15:11-32) and I pray by God's grace that we finish the race (2 Timothy 4:7) I won't judge you in your walk. I will pull the plank out of my own eye (Matthew 7:1-5). Let us be doers and not just hearers of the word (James 1:22-25). Work out your own salvation with fear and trembling (Philippians 2:12).

Saturday, April 9, 2016

Hello Beautiful

Don't let cruel words tear you down. If you live by man's praise you will die by his criticism or maybe even his silence. Kind words didn't make you but they can affirm and build you up. What matters most is not what they think about you but what you believe about yourself. Sometimes we get too deep and make beauty out to be a bad thing. Just because beauty is fleeting (Proverbs 31:30) doesn't mean it can't be appreciated, so are our lives they are but a breath (James 4:14). We know that the things that are seen are temporary (2 Corinthians 4.18), the soul lives on. So I value my mind, heart and spirit but I can take a compliment. Say thank you. Leave out the shame, jealousy and false outrage, embrace beauty whether that's yours or others (Genesis 12:11 - Sarai, Esther 2:7 - Esther ; 1 Samuel 16:12 - David). Be careful not to judge people based on looks. Saul was tall and handsome (1 Samuel 9:2) but displeased God and lost his position (1 Samuel 15:11). God does not see as man sees, He looks at the heart (1 Samuel 16:7). 

If the grass is greener on the other side, maybe it's because they water it. Some people try to tame the beast called envy by convincing themselves that the people who have what they want are miserable, maybe maybe not. Maybe they seem to magically have it all together because they hold it together even when life is trying to pull them apart. Wherever we are we have grace. You have to learn to take the good with the bad. At every level there are positives and negatives, pros and cons. If you are waiting for perfection, you will never be happy. People aren't just favoured or chosen by others because of beauty, they can also be judged, rejected and envied before even being known. To think, some bitter people are mad at you because you're walking around looking and feeling beautiful, acting beautiful, talking beautiful. Imagine! Being ugly on the inside will be your downfall. You can try to fool us with your lips, the question is where is your heart? (Matthew 15:8) It will soon be revealed (Proverbs 26:26). Downgrading others doesn't upgrade yourself. Calling someone ugly can't make you beautiful. Blowing out candles won't make you shine. In the same vein, shrinking won't make them greater, hiding won't bring them happiness. Grow and be loved in all your fullness. Inspire someone to be beautiful. 

Over time we invest a lot of money in beauty products, remember that inner beauty costs too. Build character, develop your personality and guard your heart (Proverbs 4:23). I can't think when but once upon a time I was convicted, I was convinced and I was changed, I'm still growing. I can only be who I am so I live to be true to self. I was created for a purpose and I will never sell myself short. I can't live a life less than passionate. I will live inspired and unapologetic about it. I'm not too much or too little, I am enough. Whilst I could do it for show, my heart is never absent. Authenticity is my favourite thing. Those who refuse to accept me as I am can't hang around for long, eventually they must drop off. Don't lose yourself. You don't realise how much power and freedom there is in being you. Don't be a slave to someone's fantasy of you. There is nothing that God made that He didn't see as good (Genesis 1). You are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14) do you see it? 

Saturday, April 2, 2016

I'm Alright With Me

I love being myself 
            Because I took the time,
     To get to know myself 
                           And see what I would find.

You can only give the love you have. They can't love you because they don't love themselves (Matthew 22:39). They may try but they'll mishandle you in the same way they disservice themselves. This is why you shouldn't worry about people trying to break you, they are already broken. You just need to be still, be quiet inside, block out the world and listen out for peace. Prayer is not performance. The people trying to disrupt your peace have no peace. The people trying to make you miserable are already miserable. I feel sorry for them because they are foolish, it won't make them happy, it won't heal them. You have to deal with you. Other people's success is not making you unhappy. You have to deal with you. Other people's failures won't make you happy either. 

Stop looking outside of yourself. We accumulate things but those things are not you, they don't make you. God made you. Find out who you are. Many issues go back to identity. Uncertainty about identity leads to insecurity and instability. Am I beautiful? Am I bright? Am I worthy? Am I accepted? Am I purposed? Some emulate the person they perceive to have it all together, but you can't find them, you have to find you. Who are you? Not just your strengths, can you confront your own flaws and weaknesses and be okay. Erykah said "I'm alright with me". When you carry love and light you become attractive. You think it's just appearance, but there's something about you - essence. As you get to know yourself, you will begin to learn what suits you and what doesn't, what you need vs. what you want, what you're good at and what you're not. You will develop confidence. 

When you accept where you are, your honesty and humility will allow you to see where you're going, enabling you to adjust accordingly. Confidence means self-assurance. You can only be sure of what you know. Know thyself. Similarly how can you be sure of, put your trust in and have faith in God if you don't know Him. "Before I formed you in the womb I knew you" (Jeremiah 1:5) He knows you. So God tell me about me, who am I? "A prophet to the nations". To assure means to dispel any doubts. When God says it, man can't deny it though they dispute it "I know who I am". If they can't accept themselves why would they accept you? If they're unsure of themselves, how could they be sure about you? If I exist likeminded people must exist. If everyone is fake then what does that make you? Someone has to be genuine. You're beautiful but you're not the only beautiful person, don't be threatened be secure. I'm not so arrogant to think I'm the only one. I can be sure of that because I'm sure of myself. 

I'm alright with me and as a result of that I'm alright with you xx

Sunday, March 27, 2016

The Spoken Word

Genesis 1 He's painting the picture and He sees that it is good... but only one was perfect (Matthew 5:48). How could we be perfect? Adam and Eve were deceived "The day you eat of it [the fruit] your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God" (Genesis 3:1-13). They were already like God, made in His image according to His likeness (Genesis 1:26-28) blessed by Him, but because of their disobedience they were now cursed (Deuteronomy 28).
He could have just thrown us, the flawed, the disobedient, the sinful, away but instead He sacrificed one for all (John 3:16-17). Just as He said in the beginning 'Let There Be Light' He reached out to us whilst still in darkness to give us 'The True Light' which gives light to every man (John 1:9). Again, He forms us in His image, YOU are the light of the world (Matthew 5:14-16), and the light shines in the darkness, and the darkness did not comprehend it (John 1:5). Night must give way to morning, and weeping to joy (Psalm 30:5) The sun will always rise. The spoken word "It is finished" led us to a new beginning (John 19:30) He gave UP His Spirit to give US His Spirit (John 16:5-15).